2013

2013 is OVERRRR. And yeah, it took me long enough to start this post. HARHAR.

The year 2013 went by in a flash. Met new people, made new friends, experienced new stuff. I still remember getting the text that I was taking on events for FOP. It was a mixture of sad and happy as I really wanted FOC. Those few weeks were really fun, going to club everyday to help out with props and slack with the people. hahahha. Got to know many new SD people while helping out with props. Then came the orientation and I got to be a GL. It was really fun yet tiring, but I'm glad I met the MKRs!

The next big thing I remember would be my birthday. YEPPPY I AM EIGHTEEN NAO :D So many people celebrated with me, the potatoes, the PRSS peeps, the family, and also a surprise by tubs and tiqs. And that is also the start of texting J once again. (teehee!)

Then yeah came Derek's chalet where J and I started. I'm really thankful for him, giving me all those happiness for the past 6 months (almost). Celebrated his 21st birthday at a chalet, met his friends, his family, and even the extended family this christmas. 

Then came the New Year countdown, we went to *SCAPE for the supernova bash party. It was alright, but I couldn't really get high for some odd reason. >.> But had a great time, especially kissing him when it turned twelve, marking the start of 2014.

Oh forgot to mention, thanks to J, I have started jogging regularly (or not so regularly), but it's far more than I have ever jogged/ran. :D Really happy he managed to get this sloth of me to start jogging hahahaha. Hope I will start to lose weight. :> 

2013 was kind of a good year for me, met many new people, made new friends, got together with J. Hope 2014 will be better (:

Bangkok? NOPE. PENANG

After years of waiting, finally a family trip!

I was really excited when we were going to Bangkok initially as sources (mainly fi and min) told me that clothes and everything is really cheap there. Looking forward to the trip for quite a few months and BAM, a riot happened in Bangkok. So, as expected, the trip finally got cancelled like a week before the supposed departure date and last minute plans took us to Penang instead!

It turned out to be a blessing in disguise. True, we did not get to shop for fucking cheap-ass clothes in Bangkok, but at least we were safe from whatever was happening there. Adding on to that, we had an awesome time in Penang.

The boy's cute blur face while my parents were checking in our luggage. hehe.

While waiting for the plane to take off... SELCA TIME

Upon reaching Penang, there were many people at the arrival hall holding papers with names on them. I was joking to J saying that they were here for me and we actually saw this man holding a piece of paper with daddy fong's name. HA HA, was so amused by it then. He led us to his vehicle and drove us to our hotel where we checked in and immediately went for the famous fried kway teow in Penang. Went all explorer mode and walked there as the people at the counter said that it's quite near. 

Doesn't it just look so good? Juicy prawns and all. Mmmmmm....

Ordered fried oyster too, though I didn't touch the oysters hehe.

It was not too bad, the chilli sauce was damn nice.

Did some shopping at Gurney Paragon Mall without knowing that it's actually quite expensive there ): Still, I bought some stuff hehe.

Always wanted a pullover like this but never got the chance to find one of reasonable price.

Found this at H&M for like approx SGD$19.

Got some shorts in the process. hehe. approx SGD$16. 

Bought another one in wine red but it's currently washing cause i wore it :P

Oh! J, my sis and I couldn't resist the temptation 

of the dessert from this shop and ended up buying them hehe.

Looks really good right! Mmmmm... :P

The wait for my mom after that was literally insane. She asked if the shorts I bought was comfortable and stupid me went to tell her the truth. Then she told us that she was going back H&M for a last look at the shorts for a little while and guess that, we end up waiting for her for an hour while she shopped. Dahell right?

Anyway, we went for an awesome dinner at a nearby street hawker. It was really interesting though, the way they cook a few delicacies we have here locally, such as Hokkien Noodles, Wanton Noodles, Satay etc. Their Hokkien Mee was like soup based! It's such a pity I didn't manage to snap any pictures as we were too hungry and gobbled up everything in a flash hahaha. Oh, I even managed to try a bit of Penang Laksa. Wasn't what I expected though, it was sour. O:

Bought some cutie keychains there but didn't snap any pictures of it >< 

Back at the hotel, both J and I was trying to turn on the tv in our room but couldn't and we decided to call the counter to send someone up. They end up taking really long that we both fell asleep while waiting, and then decided that we will settle it the next day. 

Oh regrets regrets, for not taking any pictures of the breakfast buffet! It was rather nice with a wide variety of yummy food. 

Day two ended up being shopping day where we went to 1st Avenue Mall and Komtar area to shop! 1st Avenue was not too bad, where I got a pair of really nice shorts and a dress.

Soooo pretty right! There was one in pink too but it doesnt really suit me haha!

Right, and the denim coloured dress too! It actually has laces at the front if you can't see!

We got hungry after shopping and went to look for food after that. Walked randomly wanting to get food and discovered this mall nearby. It was really big, with a cinema on the top floor! Wanted to catch a movie but we got carried away shopping teehee!

Anyway this seafood platter was my lunch! 

Not really as awesome as it seems, though the salmon was nice.

The original plan to go to Feringgi Beach for seafood and night market shopping was then abandoned and we decided to walk around this mall after a very filling lunch. Walked around and didn't really pay much attention to anything much as I wanted to save money for the night market shopping the next day. Got a snapback, zippo lighter for J, a charm bracelet with the charms chosen by both of us, and also a couple necklace with J! Ohohhhh, I finally got female boxers heehee. so cute!

Pretty snapback.. Leather one too (okay artificial leather)

Such cute designs right hahahah! horribly ugly red ribbon cut off after reaching home :\

The third day was a day full of walking. Woke up really early and after breakfast at the hotel, we set off to visit Kek Lok Si Temple. 

The first thing I saw when we alighted from the van! 

Wishing Tree! So amazing right!

Got J to write my name muahahha. :3

So grand right. Pardon for the dark shadows though. ):

My mom told me that this statue was actually in the mountains until they brought it to the temple. 

It's really huge..

With the trusty iPhone5c I had with me, I managed to take a panorama shot of the scenery.

Sigh, times like this I wish I brought my DSLR along.

But then my backpack broke earlier that morning and then I am glad I hadn't brought the DSLR.

Saw this really adorable pig statue and J helped me take a picture of me with it!

Heehee.

Oh! Almost forgot about the oh-so-rare photo of the Fong family! 

We may look totally normal here but it was scorching hot and we were facing the damn sun!

Everyone was squinting if you looked close enough!

Credits to J for taking this photo for us! <3

Got to sit on some lift / cable car thing which took us down the hill. 

(heh heh! My mom wanted us to walk okay!)

Saw this beautiful wall of windows and well, snapped a picture. :D

Was outside the Pagoda and saw this big ass bell!

It was supposed to sort of grant your wishes or something.

Gave a donation and hit the bell thrice! (rather softly, comments from everyone there..)

Did a little donation and had daddy fong's name written on a piece of brick (?) to be built into the temple!

Cute little turtle on the big one. 

ASDFGHJKL so cute I just had to snap a picture!

This really huge tortoise with muscular-looking legs.

Superman snapback that I got while exiting Kek Lok Si

It's so cute that they sell this too! Poop!

It's really real that it made all of us cringe upon seeing it.

It was so hot and we spent too much time at Kek Lok Si temple that we decided to skip Penang Hill and go straight to the Reclining Buddha Temple. Didn't get any pictures as I left my phone in the van, but it was an eye-opening experience. Went to get holy water blessings as my mom said it once saved her life. Yep.

Went back to the hotel after that and went for a swim (nope, play water session) with J in the hotel. Took a short nap and up we were, ready for a nice meal and shopping at the night market!

We kind of YOLO-ed and took the public bus to Feringgi Beach to save costs. 

Wooo. First time taking a public bus in Penang! :D

What we saw while looking for a place to have dinner.

HA HA so funny right! LOL

Then came dinner.. (prepare to drool!)

Lobster! It was really fresh and juicy, the flesh easily taken out from the shell..

Their kind of 'chilli crab'. Not really to my liking, but it wasn't too bad.

The oh-so-yummy steamed fish.

Really fresh and nice..

Sweet & Sour chicken. Yummmm.

Shopping at the night market was not too bad. J got a watch for himself, I got a new backpack and we both got starbucks singlets! :D

My new backpack! It's really cute but a tad pricey at approx SGD$27.

Had to reconsider before finally getting it.

Part of the reason why I got it was the way it opens!

So cute right! Everyone was so amazed!

Yay, starbucks singlet with J!

Now I can wear it at home or when I go downstairs hehe.

Took the bus back to Komtar area and walked back to the hotel. Packed our luggages and slept.

Woke up late, at about 9am to have our breakfast and do some last minute shopping at the mall in Komtar as I realized that I didn't buy any tops other than the singlet and the hoodie! Last minute shopping does wonders~

Got these t-shirts for approx. SGD$8 each!

They were 2 for approx SGD$20 and I just got 4.

Couldn't decide which skull tank was nicer and just got both hahaha!

Before we know it, it was time to go back home. ): 

Had a really expensive and not a very nice lunch at the "Secret Recipe" at the airport before our flight. Got some om-nom chocolates though. hehe.

Family selca! This time with J because he is family too <3

(pardon how retarded I look here hahhaa)

The flight back home was safe and not as painful to my ears as the flight there (thankfully)

It is so rare for my family and I to go out together even to the mall to shop, let alone a trip like this.

Bro opened up to J and also the whole family too, which is a really good thing considering he's been keeping to himself and his anime/videos recently.

The family kind of bonded over doing something as simple as going out and walking together to get to destinations. It's really nice to have these kind of trips.

Both my family and J got to know each other better after this trip.

Special thanks to Daddy Fong for specially planning this trip for us. xx

Bye November, Hello December

November hadn't been exactly amazing, starting off with my mom's loss of job. Yep, it has reached the point where my mom gets retrenched and my family's income decreased by half. With her being so stressed out on looking for a new job at the age of 50 - which is not easy, no one in the family even dares to ask her for anything at all. Meh. Then comes the rather stupid quarrels with my Boyf, which were really rather uncalled for actually. Glad we manage to make up before the day ends each time. (: 

Of course, it's not all bad. I got a new phone - the iPhone 5c in white, but it already has a scratch and a dent, sighpie. Why can't I just take better care of my stuff right? Oh and I'm thankful for those meet-ups and catching up with my sisters and also the choir people just today! Missed them all so badly! Everyone are now busy with their own commitments and hardly get to meet up other than events like this, and I do hope that we will get more chances to meet up and catch up with one another. 

After ending November, there are also many things to look forward to in December. Although I'm not going for ICE camp this time round, I'm heading off to Bangkok with my family and my boy! Sooooo excited for it now that I think of it, I do hope that whatever's going on in Bangkok right now will not get too serious and end up getting my trip cancelled! ): oh and December is probably gonna be amazing because it's Christmas! Don't exactly celebrate it, but I like to exchange gifts hehe! (: 

November has officially ended, with me spending it with the most amazing group of people I've met. And now let's hope December will be better. 

Bon Voyage

Just sent the boy off at the airport for his Japan trip with his friend. Was rather excited for him for the days leading up to today (or yesterday rather), all the way until the time he has to go in. As the clock ticks and the time for him to go in is getting closer, I became a little sad. Nope, don't get me wrong here, I do want him to enjoy himself, but it's just that it's the first time my boyf is going so far away from me. 

Look at the sad faces when he was about to leave. HAHAH >< I don't know how but I somehow managed to convince him to take such a cute yet ugly photo with me. YAY I did it, feeling exceptionally accomplished since the boy doesn't exactly like taking photos, let alone selca with such an unglam facial expression. :P

After he went in and I walked off, the only strongest smell I have left of him is the faint smoke smell on my right hand. Feels a little sad that he will be away for a week, but I shall let him enjoy his trip (:

I understood that the best kiss is not one of those passionate ones, but a simple one with all our feelings conveyed, is enough.

Have fun dearest! Remember get something back for me! HAHAHA just kidding :P

Time

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I used to be able to watch a few running man episodes a day, glee with my sister once a week, and be able to just nua in bed the whole afternoon. But these days, I find that I no longer have time to do all those. And the worst thing? I am not even busy doing any of my school work.

Honestly speaking I have no idea where all the time went to. It shouldn't be so significantly less even though I am currently dating right? Heck, we don't even spend that much time together anymore because of the change in his working schedule. Yet all I have time to do now is wake up, go to school, go home straight after that, and after a shower and dinner, I'm ready to go to bed and sleep. I don't spend time doodling in my sketchbook, don't spend time watching ANYTHING at all, I don't even talk to him till I fall sleep anymore. 

Apart from all these, like I mentioned earlier, I am not doing any of my school work. Okay, it's probably mainly because I don't have the motivation to start on it at all, but also because I hardly have time to sit down and think about it. By the time I finished my shower and dinner after coming back home from school, I am already so worn out that all I want to do is hit the sack early and sleep till the next morning. 

Sometimes I just wish that there are more hours in a day so that we can at least do whatever we like apart from the responsibilities that we have to uphold. Imagine having 36 hours a day or something, minus 8 hours for sleep, 9 hours for school, 5 hours for miscellaneous stuff such as eating and showering, we still have 14 hours to do what we want. Wouldn't that be just great? 

But too bad,

it just doesn't work out that way.

Glad.

Spending day after day wondering about this biggest question in my mind : What exactly are we?

I finally decided that this can't go on anymore and talked to you about it. Yep, it wasn't exactly the perfect time to talk about it since we were only on the phone and not face to face, but I just had to let it out. 

It wasn't very healthy for us to jump right into this... (do you call it a relationship?) from the start, but it was something that neither you nor me could control I suppose. 

Day after day I've been wondering if we should continue being like this, like you said, behind the "invisible line", where it just feels different. I agree with you to some extent as it is probably a good solution to prevent taking each other for granted, but on the other hand I felt like the whole situation is not very fair for either of us.

After you asked me to officially be your girlfriend, I hesitated. Right, yes, it sounds really stupid but that was exactly what I did. I don't know if it is really safe to take this step, really don't wanna get hurt again. 

Glad that we talked about it though, at least it cleared things up and you know how I feel already. (: If it doesn't work out, I don't want to lose you as a friend either. (: x

It scares me...

Over the past two days we spent almost every minute together, I've gotten so used to having you around that it scares me.

Not only I miss all your lame, irritating and perverted comments to everything I say, I miss how much you took care of me, not letting me feel alone throughout the whole time. Yep, you do go for smoke breaks leaving me alone for a little while but after that you'd always come back to sit beside me. Having you constantly asking me if I am hungry, thirsty, or tired, it made me so reliant on you.

Apart from those mentioned above, it scares me even more that I miss how you'd take my hand and play with my fingers, or you leaning on me whenever and wherever we sit. What's worse, after two days of sleeping with you beside me, I even got used to that, well, and the kisses we shared. :\

Everyone's thinking that we're together, yet you don't even wanna explain to them.. playing along even. Your own classmate told me how compatible we look, she even started telling me how good you are and stuff, wishing me the best..

However, we aren't even anything.. nothing but just friends or you could call, god siblings (well, not exactly officially but i started off calling him 'kor') and yet I'm just getting so attracted. ): I should wait and see how things go but.. ugh. ><